Yep... obviously, if you've read previous posts, you'll know that i was on a mission to win someback back...

MISSION STATUS: FAILED :(

She has a new guy, she had a bf yesterday and notified me today... Fun eh?

Im supposed to be cursing and raanting and posting shitl all over this post but.... NO! not this time... You see, this time im going to accept what life brings me.. I made a decision to win her back, i decided to fall without thinking that someone may not catch me.. Now, i have fallen and no one will catch me.

Im taking this like a man.... No regrets.. I fell madly in-love, the feeling is great, i feel awful now... Still i have to move on and move on i will (Yeah i sound like Yoda now...)

No crazy antics this time, no posting profanity... I love her i really do but she doesnt feel the same way.. In a way im surprised that i feel no anger in me, i feel lonely but eventually... i will be happy again.

Yep, im a changed man... I hate this feeling, the feeling of rejection, the feeling that i will never find that woman for me..

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Bah! Im moving on... Fuck them all!!!! (a changed man indeed)

Updates soon... :(

Hello peeps... Yes... I know... Me fucks up again...
I did say that i was gonna give an update very soon but....well... how long has it been?
My bad people....my bad...

Quick note: Thanks to all who took the time to read and even give a much appreciated comment...

Thank you peeps... Much love to y'all! :-)

So, you guys wanna know who the hell is she? Call her Miss L to the O to the RR to the A to the I....blah blah blah....you should get it by know....

Time for an update eh?
Things have been going....ummmm... check this song out, this muthafuckin song=how i feel at the moment...

Caedmon's Call - Prove Me Wrong

Sometimes I fear Maybe I'm not chosen
You've hardened my heart like Pharaoh
That would explain why life is so hard for me

And I am sad Esau hated
Crying against what's fated
Saying father, please, is there any left for me

Cast out my doubts, please prove me wrong
'Cause these demons can be so headstrong
Make my walls fall, please prove me wrong
'Cause this resentment's been building
Burn them up with your fire so strong
If you can before I bail, please prove me wrong

I fear maybe this is all just a game
Our friends and our families all play too
Harness the young and give some comfort to the old

Don't let my doubts prove true
Draw me close and hold me near to you
Keep me still until the day you

Need i elaborate further?

Also, a little rant from yours truly....
here i go......F*ck you mitch kupchak! Yeah good job fucking up my lakers! The warriors got Baron Davis for virtually nothing.... you were sitting in your ass doing nothing!!!! Wake up! Dont even get me started.....we have expiring contracts and a certain Caron butler to offer nawlins! You sick bitch! Yeah, fuck you mitch kupcake! you suck! harder than paris hilton.....someday i would personally make my way to LA and choke the living shit out of you!

Phew! *Deep breath* Sorry for postin profanity....but....*remembers to control self*

That's it for now....more updates to come...hopefully.....*crosses fingers*soon!
Thanks for taking the time to read....comments are much appreciated...

What's up Tinkerbel and my imaginary readers?

A late Happy Valentines to y'all! :-)

Guess what? Life doesnt seem like a bitch no more!!!! Yep! Yep! Bada-boom-badabing!
Im a man on a mission... im gonna win back my girl... You betta believe that playa..

Yeah, im feeling good... my life is gettin back on track and i like the way things are running.

I'll definitely be postin updates about my mission to win her back... of course no one that i know in real life even knows that i have a blog... Yes! That's right! You my imaginary readers and Tinkerbel will be given the priviledge(:sarcasm:) to know what happens behind the scenes. all the drama, all the excitement will be in this blog. Get ready to be pimpified yo!(Seriously, i dont even know what pimpified means... anyone wanna gelp me with that?)

This blog is gonna be rollin baybee!!! This will be the most read blog evah!(In my dreams..of course...)

Till next time.. and believe me next time will be soon...

As usual comments will be greatly appreciated... thanks for reading(or not reading)

Sup my imaginary readers... Did anyone miss me?
Anyways, im sure you my imaginary readers needs an explanation so..... here it goes:
Back then Life was a bitch, bitch, bitch and the internet was the only place i felt like a smaller loser. Guess what? I just ranted... Now, the real reason why i was gone? I WAS STUDYING!!! OMG!!!11111!!!! I STUDIED!!!1111!!!

Anyway, big shoutout to Tinkerbel. I dont know who you are but i appreciate you reading my piece of trash(also known as a blog). Wait... Uh.... OMG!!!!!1111111!!!!!!111 I have a reader that isnt a pigment of my imagination!!111!!! SHHIIITT!!111!!!!!1 LOL!

Expect more of me in the next few days... But for now this is your resident loser signing off.. :-)

Big party tonight. There's this girl that i have known only through text messaging. We're meeting each other for the first time tonight. Wish my luck my loyal imaginary readers.

But wait.... You cant expect me to post without bitching about something... here i go.... again.
Fuck! Fuck! I cant use my car tonight, the guy who repairs my car says that i can pick it up tomorrow. WTF?!? I need it know!
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hah! phew!

So tonight, i meet a girl but i cant bring her to those romantic places because i cant use my fucking car. Fuck you Repairman with a stinky armpit. Fuck you dicksucking Mitsubishi!
ARRggggghhhh!!!!111!!!!!!111!!!!!

Till then... =)

Im back. Remember my last post? It was at around 8:50 in the morning and i mentioned that i was gonna have an exam. guess what? I fucked up!
What i thought was an exam at 10:00 in the morning was actually 9:00 in the morning, i arrived in class at 9:58 and my professor gave me 2 fucking minutes to finish the godforsaken test. I told him i was misinformed but the motherfucker didnt want to listen to me. I was hoping for his kind consideration but the faggot was too fucked up to give me a tinsy winsy chance. Arrgh!

I know that most of you have the impression that i am an angry young man. Im not, in real life, i keep my emotions to myself. My imaginary readers get the privilege to read my constant whining, bickering and bitching. For some, it should be fun.

Big party on friday night(tommorow). I am expected to meet a girl i have ony known through sms messaging. She seems like a nice girl and i hope we get along. If it doesnt, then i'll spend the night dancing and getting my crazy ass drunk.....again....

All in all, it seems like this is gonna be a boring day. Im infront of my computer surfing the net and listening to music.

Showtime Returns hasnt been updated for nearly 2 weeks now. Im probably gonna close that piece of shit. My team is playing like shit anyways. Why whine and bitch on 2 different blogs, when i can whine and bitch in 1? Ugh!

Somehow, im really feeling this song. If your yet to hear this song then google it up and start downloading.

Let Go by 12 Stones
I feel so alone again
I know that I need you
To help me make it through the night
And I pray that you believe in me
You gave me my strength
To face another day alone

And I need you now my friend
More than you know yah
When will we meet again
Cause i can't let go of you

This world brings me down again
I know that I need you
To help me make it through the night
And I know that you're the one for me
You gave me my strength to face another day alone

And I need you now my friend
More than you know yah
When will we meet again
Cause I can't let go I can't let go

As time passes by I find
Things never seem to change
When i feel alone
You bring me back to you

And I need you now my friend
More than you know yah
When will we meet again
Cause I can't let go of you
No I can't let go

Gin Blossoms and 12 Stones own y'all!!! LOL! Just kidding...

Till next time... Hope you had a good read my imaginary reader... =)

Looks like this is gonna be a good day... Im in a happy mood.. no whining from me today... 8:52 in the morning.

In a few minutes i'll be taking a shower before i go to my beloved(see:shit) school. I have an exam on Nutrition and i didnt read no shit. My brain is empty... Do you guys know that im the master of cheating? i have the uncanny ability to charm people into giving me their answers..

Got to go for now... I'll be posting how this day is gonna turn out... Ooohhh.. The suspense! Ugh! No one reads my shit anyway.... hahaha.

See ya... Imaginary reader. =)

What's up? Guess what? More of me whining today...

What the fuck is the problem with my family? Home should be a happy place but this place i call home is sad and irritating. In this place people have the right to get mad at me anytime they want to. Fun eh? Ugh!

Want more whining? Nah! Maybe next time... I just wanted to vent out my feelings... so here i go....
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Phew! See ya!

hi... its me again...

Went to school this morning with a hangover... chatted with a few friends and cheated my way through a test.. boring eh? Yep! Thats my life... sad and boring.... feeling sympathetic? dont!

Anyways, remember the girl i talked about in my first post? guess what... Fuck her! I learned that she had a huge crush at one my buddies. Haha! Friend or potiental lover? We got a n-brainer right here folks.... Friends are hard to find... Fuck her for looking at me eye to eye with that cute smile, giving me signs that she likes me too... Fuck! What was i thinking anyway? She was way out of my league... She was cute, sexy and fun to be with. Im a 18 year old nursing student that smokes 20 cigars a day and gets drunk at least 3 times a week. I was planning to send her sms messages but fuggedaboutit! woOt? Im an idiot. I fell for someone i've known for a few days and is way out mf my league...

hmmmm..... i hope this blog gets more traffic than my other blog...Showtime Returns. I havent updated it in a week because i try my darnest to make a good article and i get ZERO comments...

anyways, im really feeling this song at the moment... So Far away by Staind
This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I�ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I�d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

(chorus)
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I�m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I�ve never said before
I think I�m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I�ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

(chorus)

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me

(chorus)

Thanks for reading(does anyone actually read this shit?). Also, i would really appreciate if someone could post a download link for the song look what you've done by Jet. I cant find anything on google and i dont use kazaa or winmx or any file sharing programs... Thanks. Till then...

Hi everyone... Im TJ. Welcome to my personal blog. Currently, im bored as hell and lonely as shit.

*wait! Turns the speaker louder*
Im currently listening to a song titled follow you down by Gin Blossoms... This song describes my mood.. A girl that i met one week ago has left to another city... I dont know but somehow, someway, i feel that she is the one for me...

Here's the lyrics....
Did you see the sky
I think it means that we've been lost
Maybe one less time is all we need
I can't really help it if my tongue's all tied in knots
Jumping off a bridge, it's just the farthest that I've ever been
Anywhere you go, I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go, I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down, but not that far
I know we're headed somewhere, I can see how far we've come
But still I can't remember anything
Let's not do the wrong thing and I'll swear it might be fun
It's a long way down when all the knots we've tied have come undone
Anywhere you go, I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go, I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down, but not that far
How you gonna ever find your place
Running in an artificial pace
Are they gonna find us lying face down in the sand
So what the hell now, we've already been forever damned
Anywhere you go I'll follow you down...


Sigh.... Life realy is a bitch, you fall in love with someone you recently met and one week after she leaves to another city... Deep inside, part of me feels that someday, somehow, were bound to meet again but another part of me screams Who cares about that girl? You've known her for only a week! Arrggh! Get used to me bitching and whining about stuff... That's what this blog is for.... i rarely(see:never) show my friends how depressed or hurt i am, i dont want people around me getting worried.. now, im hoping to gain internet friends to give me advice and be the friends that i can tell anything... That's why being anonymous is so cool...

Yeah.. I know, this post stinks, it sucks... I apologize for this crappy post, i will give you guys a better read. I promise...Thanks for reading.